Day 1: The start of something new

*Yes the title of this post may be a slight head nod to High School Musical*

It’s here! 2015 is finally here!

It seems like I’ve been waiting so long for the New Year to arrive. It’s not like I couldn’t have started being better about my eating choices before we completed another trip around the sun, but I don’t know. There’s something to feeling like you have a fresh start. A new year, a new set of challenges and triumphs to accomplish.

I know it’s only day one and the hype of starting something new is still carrying me, but there is something different about this year. I can’t fully find the words to explain it. Maybe it’s just intuition or a gut feeling, but things are definitely looking up.

It helps that in the past week I’ve been trying to eliminate as much sugar and mindless eating as I can. I find myself having to really focus and stay in the moment to get past old eating habits and to ride out the temporary emotion of thinking that I’m hungry. I’m usually not hungry. It’s more so that I am trying to numb or remove a thought or landslide of thoughts from taking me down.

It’s kind of crazy to me to think of how much more time I have when I’m not obsessing about food. I think about food A LOT. I never realized how much I really am just constantly worrying about what I should eat next and when and how guilty I feel about eating said food.

It stems from the notion of feeling like I don’t deserve to have the body or mind frame that I want. It’s messed up logic, that’s for sure. But I think it scares me to feel like what I want is really and truly completely up to me. I can make it happen if I go forward toward it and put in the work.

That’s all it takes to make a dream into a goal into reality. Put in the work. Every day. When it’s easy. Especially when it’s difficult. Keep going when you don’t want to. Keep going when you don’t have an ounce of willpower or fight in you. Because you do. You are better and stronger and braver than you ever thought you were. You are amazing and fully deserving of every bit of happiness you find in life. Enjoy it all because you are worth the fight.