Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Being done and starting new

Enough is enough.

I’ve decided that I am done putting up with things that no longer serve me in a positive light. I will no longer put up with situations or people that make me feel less than who I deserve to be. I am exhausted by the exertion of caring for people who clearly don’t feel the same way. I am beyond done with this job that strips me from any happiness; that has repeatedly told me that what I do here on a daily basis (when there actually is any work at all to do) is not good enough, not this enough, not that enough.

I AM DONE WITH ALL OF IT.

In improv we are taught to say Yes and… it’s a way to agree and build on a scene/relationship. I try to live by this principal in my daily life so I can open myself up to friendships and opportunities, but seriously? I’m done with that. This coming New Year get ready for me to say a lot more of the word No. I’m going to be like a two year old who finally came to terms with the magical word. I am not going to feel an ounce of guilt for putting myself first.

Last year I made a little bit of the same declaration and have stuck to it fairly well. But this is a whole new level of not putting up with any more bullshit. I’m done. I’m so over it. I’m so beyond over it. I’m done waking up not wanting the day to start. I’m done not being able to look in the mirror because I dislike so much of what I see. I’m done draining my life for a job that gives me the opposite of purpose.

2015 is going to be the year that shifts my life. I can feel it. I’m not looking back anymore. I am not apologizing for being me. I am going to celebrate all that I have accomplished because of my work ethic and not let anything stand in my way.

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